Call out for him, her, or them. They are there for you to be your ears and eyes by elucidating new chapters of your own book to you. It is important to be open when life judged you for living terribly. Quit the ego and pride because you have the person out there seeking for you than the world who erases you. Talk, open, and speak up! Speak clearly and loudly all the rotten words and thoughts about yourself now and never hold the silence that kills you deeply inside.

They are there when you call out. They understand as they can hear you very well. They will mean the whole universe to you as they return to you the life you never knew you had, when you were born innocent. They will guide and help you renew every tragic episode’s hell has shone to you. Call out to them, as they too are suffering. They are hurt too but want you to speak first. The bond they genuinely create unconsciously when two bodies transform their stoned – cold hearts to warm ones. Speak and call out to them who you trust and nakedly utter your worries while swallowing your prides. Hold your judgements, sooner or later it belongs to drainage paths as they are filthy and pathetic. They do not create peace for the hardened souls. So, call out to the good and righteous ones to make a pavement for your life to go on. Because everything will end and turn to dust, when you kiss your trials goodbye. Rush your ears to them when they say `call out to me’.

-DIVYA THERESA 17/12/2020-

the power of primary love. the title says it all. what do you think is your primary love? the first love given to you when you opened your eyes for the first time. its family. the rest could say “oh no, i was abandoned , i was not cared enough for”. whatever the aftermath may be during your second blink , it was still their love who took care of your presence.

no matter which colour or religion of family you belong to , the first love that you have always assured of, is your primary love. the loud noises that awakens your sleepy soul by just that one relative. that one cousin whom you get to tell your boys stuffs to. that one uncle who you just have to create a nickname for. that one little baby who arrives in your family bringing more louder cries.

its the every festival where you plan before hand on your outfit because there is always the party going on. this is the greatest party you can ever belong to. some may not like it. but they don’t seem to understand how one member of that family, puts major effort to stick us all like glue. the future is unpredictable. therefore hope is all we have to save this love for a very long time.

they may have let us down too many times,yet they have never forgotten to stretch out their hands to lift us up. this sort of reconciliation is incomparable. times passes too fast. therefore, savour these moments with them.this makes the clock tick a lot slower. people, prioritize your first love. ohana.

-DIVYA THERESA-

I`m out at the balcony talking to the moon,
ranting about the questions in my head ,
when it comes to you.

I’m still looking at the big light at night.
while thinking of you, I wonder why,
that my heart hurts so much, when i miss your smile.

I can’t stop catching a glimpse of it up there,
it is so amazing ,that it eases my nightmares.
How I wish, I could share this moon with you.
But what can I say when you don’t feel the same way too?

Oh beauty in the sky ,
please, give me the answers to rectify,
that this guy right here, cant be mine .

-DIVYA THERESA- 17TH MARCH

Just go, take the baby steps away from me.

You`ll be far yet so close, all cause i don’t want to miss you so.

Just go, run backwards,so that everytime i rush to you ,

I`ll always be sure that these feelings , won’t even fly me to the moon.

Just go, ignore the useless conversations we ever had,

Especially, when love talks in the air.

Just go , leave when i`ve finally confessed to you.

It means nothing anyway ; let me feel blue while pondering about this everyday.

Just go, further yourself from me, tho i`ve waited decades and

Swam miles across the ocean all cause i wanted to .

Just go, Just leave.

But, don’t go so far, I can’t be that apart.

From your heart, i wish to stay near somehow, don’t leave completely.

I need to see you still; to make you know how i feel,

Because you can understand , that this unrequited feelings,

Can’t be helped in the end.

-DIVYA THERESA – 12TH MARCH 2020

Flowers in hand, I`m waiting till the end,

To say the three words that you`d never want to hear.

To capture the feelings that you will never give.

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3 petals are all that is left,

This moment is all that I have.

You call my name once and twice,

How I keep avoiding the curiosity in your eyes.

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Leaves are starting to fall ,

I am beginning to drive you up the wall.

My whole body is trembling,

To say this , why am I hesitating?

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The last petal has fallen,

My heart could feel the burn.

You almost turned away,

I knew I was gonna lose you anyway.

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I couldn`t , holding the stalk in my hand,

I pulled you back to my chest.

I know you felt the words I could not explain ,

I hold you so close, knowing what I did was insane.

-divya theresa-

it all began there,
When I was crying outside the club with no footwear.
i was much sober when i heard the guitar strum,
you were laughing when you saw me holding a bottle of rum.

it all began there ,
when you waited with my purse in your hand.
lying your back against the wall ,
giving me blooms in my heart, i could never tell,
`cause your glance that night made it hard to forget .

it all began there ,
When we were laughing and screaming our lungs out.
we never cared about the police`s stake-out,
when you sang to me the song you wrote.
i could feel it to my heart and bones ,
every line you sang no one knows what it meant.

that was where our love was made,
a typical alley with a lady to serenade.

DIVYA THERESA

4/2/2020

Your words were solid and true,
it used to lead me when your were weak and needed my rescue.

Now you’ve had your chin up,
Now your bullshit is all i’ve had enough.

It went too far when you kissed her chest,
When you brought her home saying that she was our guest.

My love was genuinely true for you,
But it got scrapped off your heart and left me without a clue.

I thought I could move on with someone new ,
He brought me to the same place where we used to lay,
Huge trees , clear sea and water so blue.

-divya theresa-

This divine night. Everything you have been filling your head through. Its time. It’s time to forget. It’s time to let go. It’s time to move forward. Take a brand new step in life and be prepared. It’s time to put the people who were confusing in your lives to a big pause. You may not be able to forget. But this is the perfect time to divert all that crappy feelings. You will find yourself freeing from these thoughts. You need to believe that you will do it. Just this few weeks of holiday till you return back to norm. The least you could do is try. ‘Work on your house and forget it’. A line from under the Tuscan sun . Especially trust yourself ,that you will be in a massive change. You won’t even recognize yourself. This Christmas , give yourself a chance to stop waiting ; stop bothering.. stop worrying if it happens. Let life be the way it is. Everything comes naturally; the way you live your life. -DIVYA THERESA-

I keep having this vision or just my man -made thoughts about this guy. He’s definitely good looking. sleek and tidy with well-combed hair. He had big round eyes. sharp-ish nose . Thick brows. Full lips with a little beard and mustache. Smirking at me . He had one perfect hand and one half arm. The point of this thought or vision what i`d like to call it; is that i was more interested to the fact that he was looking at me. I couldn’t leave the look in those eyes to look at his hand.

Accepting… Accepting the one with great imperfections . Accepting the flaws to be flawless. Accepting the abundant unchangeable things in him. Accepting the scale of his love more to his body. Accepting the conditional issues in him. Accepting the disparaging remarks with him . Accepting bad arguments with him . Accepting the weight of love more than burden. Accepting everything in him . That is how i will love him .

-DIVYA THERESA-